even if it seems impossible

 

June 5 • 2026

I put this in my wallet months ago. 

Each time I open it, this is what I see. 

trust. relax. breathe. everything is fine. really.

It helps. My shoulders drop. I exhale. 

• • • • • • • • • • • •

Every day is an avalanche of grifting, gaslighting, blatantly criminal, cruel behavior from our rogue government. This week, a row of white men in the Oval Office were chatting it up about coal, while the wannebe dictator slept in his swivel chair, head lolling to the side. They're standing right behind him! Meanwhile, Marco Rubio testifying in front of yet another committee, was shown a video of his sleeping boss. He adamantly refused to admit Trump was asleep. 

One of many WTF's 😳!

How do the gaslighters and liars look at themselves in the mirror? 

How do they look their kids in the eye? 

People are still refusing, doubling down even, that Jan. 6th was a pretty normal day. Nothing to see here, while a mob stormed the capitol, Nazi + Confederate flags, Trump flags, were used to beat police officers. Some of the mob were police officers. That was five years ago. So why does it feel like yesterday?  

Is anyone else feeling the exhaustion of staying up? 

Some days, I'm doggy paddling. A sad dog. The challenge is to not get stuck paddling but to remember that all this is fluid, constantly changing, impermanent. 

Some days, like yesterday, I went to the Y, jumped around in a cardio dance class, sang a rollicking Happy Birthday to our teacher, Ilene, and left feeling high, endorphins firing.

I'm deeply aware of my privilege as I write this in the quiet of my peaceful home, plants and birds outside the open window. A whisper of breeze.  I won't be swept up, locked up, taken from my family for months, possibly deported to a country that is not mine, because of my Spanish accent, immigration status, skin color ___________. 

Every day is an avalanche of fuckery. 

This morning I told myself, it's okay, be a sad dog, but not every day.

Keep swimming, paddling, jumping around. 

Speak up, call, write, protest, rage, fight the fascists.

Write yourself a note today.

What reminder does your spirit need?

trust. 

relax. 

breathe. 

everything is fine. 

really.

even if it seems impossible.

XO b 🐝