Friday, June 22, 2012

As If You Had Chosen It



























Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it. Make it your friend and ally, not your enemy. This will miraculously transform your life.


-Eckhart Tolle

My shoulders drop when I hear Eckhart on my car stereo in his spacey German accent. 


except...


does this include the $1,500 bill for the old Volvo.
the students who seemed to be dozing in my Personal Finance Class /the strange swirly feeling in my chest wondering why in God's name am I teaching a finance class?

















answer: YES. Even if it has a labor-pain-ish kinda feel?


















For this week, I'd have to give myself a D + for 
accepting the present moment as if I'd chosen it. It definitely takes practice.

Okay, maybe a C.
Today I'm feeling A-ish.
Except I don't give grades. 
I've never cared for them.
You're an A.
You're a B-.
You're really f*cked. 
You earned yourself an F, young lady.


Isn't there another way?


















crack open
burst open


Two times this week a woman cried in yoga class.
I don't know why this is happening, she said. I'm happy.
You're just cracking open, I said.


In the Monday night writing workshop, 
tears were flowing. People get so embarrassed by their own tears. Tears happen.


I guess there's things under my skin, she said.


yup.


accept it as if you had chosen it. 


the mess 
the tears 
the not knowing
the tired kids
the belly laughs
the car bill...


Namaste



to you beautiful Being Alive peeps. 


claire hates it when I say "peeps". oh my.

SHOUT OUT TO #85 "Official" follower of This Being Alive...


Thanks for bringing yourself to the party. Invite a friend!!!


go gently,
xo b


arms wide open to you















7 comments:

  1. Betsy, today I sit with Ray in the Er again. I can spin it yes I can now that I have read TBA! he is fine, admitting for tests - likely anxiety...he needs to read this too !!!! XO

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  2. Betsy, today I sit with Ray in the Er again. I can spin it yes I can now that I have read TBA! he is fine, admitting for tests - likely anxiety...he needs to read this too !!!! XO

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  3. Betsy, today I sit with Ray in the Er again. I can spin it yes I can now that I have read TBA! he is fine, admitting for tests - likely anxiety...he needs to read this too !!!! XO

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  4. Betsy, today I sit with Ray in the Er again. I can spin it yes I can now that I have read TBA! he is fine, admitting for tests - likely anxiety...he needs to read this too !!!! XO

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  5. Ceej, I am thinking of you and love that your comment showed up 4 times?
    Blessings on your sweet Dad, Ray, and you;

    Life feels so hard some days I could just about break into pieces and then, strangely easy when I allow it to be.

    xoxoxo b

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  6. Again, the visual is as stunning as the verbal. Really great posting, Bets!
    I'll dig back into Tolle....

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  7. Thanks so much for stopping by.
    I am having fun with my camera!!
    Summer is such a gorgeous season...
    Tolle keeps me grounded in a very good way... xo

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